My mind is rarely calm. It’s past times include: jumping around from thought to thought, replaying scenarios, and analyzing, always analyzing. One thing I’ve found helpful to process some of my thoughts has been the habit of Morning Pages. In her book The Artist's Way, Julia Cameron encourages creatives to start every morning with sitting down and writing three unbridled pages, with whatever comes to mind flowing out onto the page. There is such freedom (and a little bit of trepidation) in writing three completely uncensored pages of whatever your heart and mind are longing to share.
When journaling before, I found it difficult to write something that wasn’t edited. My words would be arranged in a polished way as if I was preparing a final draft. Now, once I fill a journal, I recycle it. Knowing that, I have the freedom to write the good, the bad, the embarrassing, and the ridiculous, without restraint.
Cameron recommends always writing your morning pages first thing. I don’t always make time for it in the morning though depending on the particular day. If I made it a rule that I must write them first thing, I probably would not participate at all. But I always write them at some point in the day and the practice is usually paired with a cup of coffee or tea. It’s become a ritual that is comforting and helps calm my busy mind.
It is in these pages that I discover more about who I am, what things I fear, and where I find greatest joy. It is its own form of therapy and self care.